Me

My brain is in a dilemma. Cause I often do what I feel. Whatever I feel I do it that way. When I’m angry , I lose my anger. When I am sad , I just cry. I dun actually have much control cause my emotions often overwhelm me. I just sit quietly and think until I get an answer. But I often act in impulse and make decisions that will hurt others. People say it’s ok to quarrel. But whenever I quarrel with someone , I cannot sleep properly. When i feel something is not right , I worry the whole time. Today , I just wanted to tell u: I miss u , maybe that’s why I just can’t stop doing things cause whatever u do , whatever u tell me I take it very seriously. If u tell me I hate u , maybe I just can’t eat no matter what good food is put in front of me. If u tell me u r sad , I would comfort u. But nowadays maybe u dun want to tell me already. I dunno why , but I just feel angry. I used to hide my emotions when I’m sad just smile. When I’m angry , keep quiet. so in the end I didn’t actually know how to express my feelings. Actually , wth why I write so much when the main point is I just wanted to tell u I miss u n know if u missed me too. It sucks why do I feel so frustated now?I dun understand am I that scary , why are u distancing yourself from me?Why?